What the hell is wrong with me?!?!

So recently I have been hearing alot of my friends and relatives around the range of my age taking themselves off the market and transforming into a Mrs!

 I cant stress how happy I am for them that they found someone they can share the rest of their lives with, yet it makes you think! in this society a woman at the age of 20 or 21 accumlates to a 25 or 26 westerner lol and now I finally feel that my life has just started at the age of 20 and the world is out there for me to explore although with my arab biological clock ticking away I find myself really shocked that it perhaps dosent really concern me at all and I find myself asking, whats the worse that could happen? I may never get married and just shrug it off thinking that my priorites at the moment is ME and how can i possibly bring someone else into my life when I have just began to shape the person i want to become, what if i change to something or transform into someone He may never like. Dont get me wrong I am not pesmestic about the though of marraige but it just suprises me that I cant picture myself in a white dress, something perhaps every girl has dreamed of, maybe all the quizes i did are right perhaps i will marry way way furthur down the line ! 

Funny thing is it dosent even bother me at all

is  something wrong with me XD

Sighs, undecided!

So my life exsists beyond my books and music, Latley I have been through a crsis of making a descion of buying a bag! yes, sadly even that is something that takes me forever to do ( I know spoken like a true Libra)
I have been looking for a bag to take that will last a whole year with me when I travel abroad to study, I really dont want anything flashy or way to obvious of a brand and I have gone through brands high and low and perhaps this is what it is going to come down to the following choices! and please if there is any bag you can reccomend I will be very greatful XD

This prada bag is perhaps the one I truly fell inlove with! its perfect in size and can withstand my laptop and books!

I love the silver in this one and it is not to bad and perhaps can withstand the weight of my laptop!

Gucci is perhaps my only tie when it comes to the fashion world, their chic , elegant bags are just so hard to ressist! esp this one <333

Puma is my official sporting wear, if you know me whats new xD and so I passed by the store the other day and saw this and kept it on my wishlist of bags to! its perfect in size!

R and R

Latley i find myself submerged deep in the world of dance and house music.
Do not let my Rock persona fool you (my love of rock music is still there) but I listen to alot of trance, dance, and House music.
I cant help but find myself almost lost in a state of "tarnse" when my Ipod blasts Armin Van burren, DJ tiesto, ATB, sia, Schiller mit heppner and so many others!
Perhaps this has much to do with my new lifestyle of hitting the Gym ( very un-procastanting of me, I realize that!) but with everyone fleeing the country (and coming back and contamiting Dubai with their swine flu XD) I have been passing my time at Fitness first and it is much more to do with bordem rather than shapping my body, but hey!, why cant I hit two birds with one stone when i have the chacne?
I really dont understand this sudden state of bordem, my books are piling like crazy and my reading has gone from four books a week to one! never bother to watch a movie or even sit on the net! I guess at one point I finally crashed and burned from everything lol and perhaps my body has ultimatley needed to relax and as a result my brain finds itself in a state of relaxation with Dance and trance music and exsercie XD funny how you come to realize everything once you go on blabbing and blabbing to no one and let your concious speak for itself in a blog like here!
So if you pass by and freak out by the sudden change in music on my blog and freak out its just my change in the mood!
Ciaos all

What?! is this an Update I see

Going through the previous blogs, I realize how much time has passed without any updates and I cant help but laugh at my laziness, I would like to think that this is a sign of me being busy, to a certain degree i am busy but too busy that I cant even write a five minute blog? yeah not even paris hilton is that busy!
Although I went through hell during my last semester I believe it was one of my most memorable semesters and perhaps the only I have excelled so well and produced the results that were outstanding!
Now its been almost 7 months of holidays of which compromised me writing and compiling letters to universities,filling up applications and university tours.
The result? Well I have managed to secure myself in the Masters of my dreams at one of the great universities in the UK!
I am quite excited for this new experience and grateful that my pearnts have given me this opportunity, Although at the same time I cant help but feel sad on how I will be spending my Ramadan away from all those sinful meals XD (yes my main concern is food) then my family XD on the bright side! I would not have a big belly XD that takes forever to loose!
Another fact! Ramadan is much longer in the UK this time around and I cant see how i can deprive myself of food for this long!! *cries* Please God give me the strength to carry myself through my classes without passing out in the middle of class XD

and finally!
I am going to try and update the music here asap, it feels like its the music of the stonage (not that I dont like them! I truly do XD)

One Bumpy Semester

Mood: Bored!

Listening to:

I can’t help myself but feel extremely lazy especially since Ramadan has dawned on us very early this year!

My body (and brain) hasn’t recognized and managed to switch from holiday mode to university, I was hoping after I step into university in my hectic schedule it would recognize but sadly it was not the case!

As I take my last remaining capstone courses I just don’t have the energy or the strength to lift a finger and study, I must confess they require a lot of reading which of course isn’t a problem for me but when it comes to reading the same concepts yet from different perspectives you just want to pull your hair and scream.

At this point I loathe Michael Porter and his 5 forces not to mention his concept of competitive advantage although I realize its significance but come on! I think we got it the first, second, third,fourth,fifth, sixth….millionth time I heard it!! Sometimes I eventually pursue a master in economics his names would be tattooed in my brain. Recently all my dreams take me to new countries and I realize how much I love and miss traveling! My brain cannot comprehend the fact that university is taking place!

As Monday is getting closer I have a presentation and research to give in and here I am because for one thing I don’t even know what topic I will be choosing and no sort of content to even use *yay*

This is going to be one bumpy semester *sighs*

Disney INC

When I go back to my childhood years and remember what cassette tapes would be playing on my radio, I cannot help but feel so ashamed of my music taste and not to mention the lyrics as well!!

I look at the list of the bands and I cant understand why I ever even listened to them! The list rangers from spice girls, Nsync and backstreet boys! Oh my God the list of horror just spills on and on. I constantly laugh at this generations talents such as High school musical, Jonas brothers and Hanna Montana ( As I like to call all the production of Disney inc..). I don’t deny that some of them may have talent but it is interesting how infatuated the 12 year old girls are with the artists. I can’t help but think if I was born in this generation how easily I could be going through the same obsessions , I probably would have all the Jonas brothers photos plastered all over my walls. Its never sizes to amaze me the power that Disney on this generation not only in music industry but as well movies and almost everything! I would love to work one day in their branding sector.

Speaking of music ! I have a new list of music up on my blog and this time its back to my rock music!

Currently on book 22 The road by Cormac Mcarthy =D

I would like to leave you with this new video that I love

For once!

Mood: ecstatic
I remember when walking into the one store when i was in desperate need to renovate my 10 year old room. I swiftly go through the bed section, coach and all i can think was " this would be perfect when i want to read a book".
Oh if i could bless myself I would (or so i have when saying the following words lol) , I sat hours today reading a great and terrible beauty on the comfort of my cozy couch and it felt like i was in a trance and having not realized that i actually finished the book *sighs*. I never realized or never thought in 10 years time how addicted I would be to reading. At least this is one of my only good habits.

I am currently on book 18 which is the famous jane Austen book Pride and prejudice.

Back to 2002

I open my eyes to find myself back in the emotional state I was in 2002, My life has been rewinded back and yet here I am trying still coping yet this time I know that I will not do the same mistake twice. I found myself looking through my CD case that has accumulated so much dust ever since the birth of MP3 Downloads yet here I still find comfort in the music I once enjoyed. Break The cycle by Staind helped me through a lot of hard times and its good to know that it is still as good as it was the first time I heard it.

Through my search of peace and tranquility I found a book that I was in search for many years and finally today of all day it was found, it all seems like a good sign for me to begin writing once again like I have many years ago.

Through all the tough days I endured recently I have finally found my muse.

Currently on book 16, The promise of happiness by Justin Cartwright

No need to say goodbye..

Procrastinating is by far the most obvious characteristics! I should be studying for my exam tomorrow but here i am just surfing the net!
Anywhoos, Yesterday I had a good time with my cousins at Ibn Battuta where we went to see the movie chronicle's of narnia, Prince Caspian (in love), by the end of the movie a song came on and the voice was very familiar and I knew without the need to google it that it should have been regina spektor! (As Usual, Im always right! LOL)
It was a beautiful song and would like to share it with everyone!

Lists mania

God my obsessions with list is practically turning all my life into mere points.
Recently I realized that having a very tough last two semester I missed out on a lot of big hits, I'm trying to make up for it as we go and so far its been going well!
With university ending on Wednesday I cannot but help start myself on movie marathons *screams with excitement* I finally can wake up everyday with absloutly NOTHING to be worried about *WOOHOO*

I have compiled some list of movies I am dying to watch! take a look at it =)

Summer shows no mercy

Summers back and it shows no mercy!
The heat is absolutely dreadful
The humidity is unbearable
and yet again another funeral in this summer.

Rest in Peace Aunt Fatma
there will be no more pain for you anymore.

Currently on book 15 in my challenge, the animal farm by Orwell

R and R

Current time 12 00 PM
Currently feeling Anxious

I'm quite surprised that at this moment I find myself quite calm despite the hours ticking away for my midterm to start. With six more classes left I just cant figure out how much time has flown by in the Summer Session, I feel like i have done nothing of significance these past few week and feel utterly useless.
Yesterday, I have officially selected the last three courses I will be taking in the Fall semester and it just feels amazing that I will be done with AUD forever!
but one thing is bugging me, The timings are really bad especially starting the year in the holy month of Ramadan. I have a three hour break which I will do absolutely nothing in *cries* Why couldn't university start after Ramadan?!
(anticipating the huge weight gain! YAY!) wouldn't that be a much better choice! yet obviously it is more important for the professors best interest to rush back to their home countries for their own holiday seasons. *sighs* this is a cranky woman talking here ><, so don't take my word far to seriously.
I cant wait when I finally finish off this semester ,I will finally have the rest that I truly deserve!

PS. I haven't forgotten about the book challenge I'm currently on book number 13! which is "The fifth mountain" by Paolo Coleho.

P.P.S 1 hour and half remaining for my midterm to begin!
DUM DUM DUUUUUM

Back and Forth we go

2: 37 AM

Wednesdays are a nightmare! The notion of me preferring a morning class is just beyond far fetched! I constantly ask myself every Wednesday, why do I hate myself so much?. My Wednesday routines are just horrible, I wake up at 6 45 am to the sound of my mobiles alarm, I wake up either dazed, confused or maybe still in the midst of my “creative” dreams. Yet this morning I awoke frantically just to revise for my two quizzes. It’s just awful of professors who present you a quiz of 25% of your grade at 8am in class! I barley know if I’m wearing the right pair of shoes, let alone what the subject of the exam is! Yet after finishing off the first quiz I had an interesting conversation with a friend on time traveling. Although the idea of going back in time may be ludicrous but I never realized how I never have really wanted to go back and time and alter things (maybe 5 minutes after the disaster happens, probably!). I truly believe that what’s done is done, and you have to make the best of your choices. Although my friend somewhat agreed with the idea, yet she still really wants to go back in time and just watch her life, (disturbing, but hey the genius mind works in many weird ways…yes I’m implying, actually KNOW for a fact my friends a genius), yet for me I would be much more interested in my future. I am quite impatient and results are important to me and in this case I want to see if all my hard work pays off, if I get the career I desire, If I ever marry Adam Brody, if I ever live abroad to do my masters, if I ever become a famous photographer And maybe even know how long I have to live. If you know you have a certain amount of time to live, will it alter you? Will you let go of everything and just peruse your dream but what rather interests me is why when we know the limitations of time then only we peruse our dreams, why hasn’t it been a constant goal that we want to attain. I just found that quite interesting. I, like your average Joe, would probably keep my dream on a side but it really got me thinking about it quite deeply.

I wish we could have gone on in this conversations but business research terms where just filling our heads. In class today I actually believed the professor wanted to get us more nervous than we are by keeping the exam by the last half an hour of the class.

But in the end of the day it all went well.

Oh! this conversation started because of our inspiration of the book the time travelers wife *sighs*

Crazy Feeling

Okay So my Itunes shuffles along my songs and all of the sudden it lands on Lost Prophets and hits a chord inside! Ever feel a song brings out a weird feeling inside that you can describe?! The worse problem is this song probably associates with something yet I cannot remember what or whom! Sighs weird feeling go away, come back another day (when my memory is intact)

The song, maybe im not the only crazy one

We miss you

12:10 PM

Today, 26th of May 2008 marks a whole year since my Grandmother God rest her soul passed away. I cant believe a whole year has passed without even realizing it, sometimes I think shes back in her house still healthy and alive like shes suppose to be. I was always proud of having such a young Grandmother who was fun to have (my most memorable vacation would be with her in Italy) .






She is dearly missed.

Procisination

With Summer courses being short, it makes quizzes and exams even closer than expected. I only take two courses and lucky me both professors decided to give our quiz on that day! ugh I am in such a procrastinating Mood becuase its "summer". I have to start studying but thats just it, i don't want to study!!
*shrugs* I hope it all goes well.
Looking optimistically, I have 5 weeks left and that translates into 12 days only!
Another thing to be happy about is Shelfari is back! =D I'm so happy to see Etisalat finally realzing that harmless website and unblocking it!

4 years

Yesterday marked the annual graduation of our uni! although I had the chance to go and see it live down at the world trade center I decided to stay in and watch it on my cozy sofa (don't be hatin =p), While I constantly reminded myself before the ceremony began that its just another graduation except with more familiar faces (I.E most of the Business school grads) but never did i think that it even occur to me while watching this ceremony will I feel emotional, it was was overwhelming! the thought that next year at this very same time I (YES ME!) shall be going through the same routine so my mind drifted, vividly imagining the excitement and the exhilaration but when I came back down to reality it hit me! Wait, Wait 4 years have passed? I could have sworn my heart skipped a beat at the thought of it, I was excited and couldn't even possibly imagine that day coming but now it scares me! and it didn't occur to me how much little time is left. 3 years and a semester at AUD! wow! I hardly believe this is even happening. Despite the many troublesome day I believe that it was in-fact like everyone has said the best years of my life, no doubt about that! Despite keeping in-touch with my old high school mates I have grown close to my AUD buddies in such a small amount of time! I just hope we don't loose touch! Gah I speak like Graduation is right around the corner!
Well with the way time passes by I wouldn't be surprised!!

On a positive note! Guess what I papen to find in my old drive! LOL
Dedicate this to moe XD

Euphoria

It was time for me to change my blog, although i intentionally wanted to have a simple design but I always go back to my comfort zone of vintage LOL.
I have a confession to make, as I began flipping the pages of atonement I saw my cousins book of Meg cabot's "to the nines" just lying there, it was calling for me to read it so I gave it a go and 10 hours later I'm Done, (not that it took me 10 hours to read! hell no).
For some reason I feel really happy, I cant really describe this state but I don't know if everyone really feels this way while reading where the story is right before their eyes and ending it just leaves then in this weird state of happiness..I don't know this may be the 3 30 am talking! who knows?! probably Euphoria is kicking in, but its funny how you enter in this state in the most unusual times and reasons!
It scares me sometimes too while the emotions flow I just cant help but enjoy it yet simultaneously fear it becuase I'm afraid of not controlling my feelings, it drives me crazy!

what am i even saying!!!Let me stay in my happy zone!!
I'm Happy =)

P.S I'm on book 11 YAY!

50 Books Mission

Time : 2 :47 pm

So, In the beginning of the year I was browsing Shelfari (Currently Blocked by Etisalat for no God Damn Reason) and I came across a group regarding a challenge of reading 50 books this year. It seemed simple All i had to do was read and finish one book a week for the rest of the year, Then University happened! yes It took away my time for reading, it sucked out my life so in this past 4 months All i managed to read was 9 books! I'm currently reading the 10th book "Atonement by Ian Mcewan". So I decided to go on with the challenge regardless of the time constraint I currently have. If my mathematical skills serve me right, with 40 books left this means I have to read 6 books a month ( A book and a half a week).
I love a challenges, it just makes reading even more fun! hehe, Anyways here are some books that are on my Wish list that I shall be reading soon!!

Back to Bordem

Time: 2:13 PM

Its been a while since I felt the feeling of having nothing to do, I thought I would be so busy this week, I even planned ahead the for a nice weekend getaway with my cousins but it was like God wanted me to somewhat slow down because suddenly I got sick on Friday and by Saturday morning after puking my guts out I was at the hospital hearing the doctor tell me that I need plenty of bed rest and for the next days that’s all I did, my biggest achievements were leaving my room! You could even ask me the schedules of both MBC4 and One TV and I know them pretty well! Although it wasn’t my intention to do “nothing” I actually enjoy it. Although I am going to the movies today its not to say that I would not have more days of doing nothing. I never though it ever felt good to be lazy! LOL